it isn't everything

a colleague of mine had her house burgled yesterday while she was in school. they took everything portable... including her daughter's clothes... and diapers. DIAPERS!

this is what the world has come to

to the point where there are selfish, thoughtless, inhuman people who would actually steal a child's DIAPERS

oh, and they even took the time to raid her fridge

it's terrible that the world has come to this... that people lose their compassion and the very thing that makes them human... just for those pieces of paper

it's terrible because people are doing this just for a few extra pieces of paper... pieces of paper that don't even have any value on their own

it's disgusting and sad because life on this earth doesn't even last forever... one day we'll all grow old and die and this world will end and no amount of small pieces of paper will make a difference

noise

her thoughts seem jumbled in her head and she struggles to sort them out. it is hard to do, being in the state of mind she is currently in... a vicious cycle - she has to clear her thoughts but cannot do so with her frazzled mind. she wonders if gazing out the window would help. 

it doesn't. 

every little activity she sees outside reminds her of what she already has inside her head. she closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. when she opens her eyes, she expects that things would look better, literally and figuratively. 

it doesn't. 

everything stays the same. the thoughts buzzing in her head buzz louder and louder and louder - to the point where she feels her very skull would split open... but would that be so bad? at leaast the bad thoughts would not bother her so much... she walks to the stereo next to the dressing table and puts on a cd... king diamond's abigail... and turns on the title track at full volume. as the opening strands begin, she lays down on her bed and closes her eyes and loses herself fully to the music even before the end of the first verse... 

let the noises come from the outside and drown the ones in her head.

funny thing happened the other day

i am stupid. i am an idiot. i am a stupid idiot!

i accidentally erased ALL my pix in my new digital camera. ALL 140 OF THEM!

how much more idiotic can you get?

gone... the pix we took at colmar tropicale

gone... that fab dinner with my friends whom i haven't seen for A G E S

gone... those adorable pix of chikuk being adorable & chikuk

i hadn't even copied them to my lappy!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!

i am such an idiotic stupid person . . .


on another note...

chikuk did a really adorable thing the other day when we were at bukit tinggi *the video of which i had actually recorded but, of course, being the stupid idiot i am, has been erased along with all the other great pix & videos... but i digress [deep, deep cleansing, calming breath]

anyway, chikuk got a new toy *courtesy of Nana*
it's a plastic tortoise with a detachable shell that has geometric patterns on it & geometric blocks *of sorts* that you're supposed to put in through the holes on the shell... i would show you a pic of it but... IT'S GONE!
chikuk was playing with his Daddy & Daddy was showing him how to put the blocks into the corresponding holes in the tortoise's shell. Daddy takes a block, slots it through its hole, removes the shell, takes the block out and demonstrates again. then he hands the block to chikuk. chikuk takes the block, looks at daddy, removes the shell and dumps ALL the blocks into the tortoise's body, fixes the shell back, looks at Daddy again and says, "Dah (done)!"

is that hilarious or what?

i wish i had the video to show u . . .

it seems i do this often
forgetting to update my blog whenever i'm back in sg...
alah, bukan nye ada org baca pon

heheh

well, the 1st semester is finally over & we're off for a well-deserved break *if u knew how well-deserved, you would definitely say that 2 weeks is way way waaaay too short*

the first week is into its mid-point & ridhwan is still not completely recovered - his temperature is gone, Alhamdulillah but his lips are still a bit cracked from the heat, poor kid... may Allaah heal him soon

also, i think he misses his daddy

tomorrow is the much-awaited outing with the cousins *we have this every now & then* and we're going to the beach with the kids before lunch. i always look forward to this & i can't wait!