I can't help it but I always feel a bit jealous when I hear other women saying that their sisters are their best friends. It's not that I have a bad relationship with mine, it's just that our age difference has kind of made it a little difficult for us to be very close. Not to mention the 300-some kilometres separating us. When Adik was 5, I was 16 and you KNOW what most 16 year olds are like! I felt that there was no way I could relate to her so... I didn't even try. It seemed that everything she did just pissed the heck out of me and every time she wanted to come in to our room, I kept wanting to throw her out... poor kid! Mom kept telling me that she never asked to be the youngest and I, selfishly, thought that I never wanted to be the eldest either. So I ended up pushing the little angel further and further away.
5 years later, I went to further my studies in KL (where I've been pretty much ever since) and missed out on watching Lil Sis grow....
Before I knew it, that sweet baby grew up to be a totally different person. Not bad... just different... She was moody and sullen and oh my God, she could have the WORST of mood swings.... Seriously! It was extremely annoying! For the longest time, it was so difficult to even talk to her without losing my temper. Every time I tried talking to her, I found that our views were so different and I felt like I would lose my temper with her remarks and attitude.
But now I realise, none of that was really her fault... Just like I wasn't really sure how to be a big sister, neither was she about having one. How we treated her in the past had something to do with it as well, I admit... The three of us, my brothers and me, were quite the bullies... We didn't beat her up or anything, but we used to tease her a lot and could be quite mean sometimes, I think.
Now, I'm trying my very best to get on better ground with Adik. I think having my sis-in-law around has made things better for us... Adik has a good relationship with her because they're closer in age and because of that, inadvertently, she knows how to relate to me as well. It's the same for me too, I think, although I'm not as close to her as Adik is (darn the distance!).
What I'm sure of is, although I'm not expecting us to be BFF tomorrow, I will try my best to make this relationship work because Lil Sis really is a great person.
definitely not proud to be an american
1 week ago
3 comments:
Lil sis sounds like a great person..LOL
You know...when I read this, everything that ever happened in Pasir Ris crept back into my subconcious...boy was I a pain and was I pained.
Which is funny because now, I smile everytime I see you. I laugh everytime you're near (jangan take this as an insult. :P). Sometimes, I can't even remember why we were so against each other and at each other's throats dulu...zaman jahiliyyah kita.
It also got me thinking about how much I changed in your absence. YOU try living with two older brothers who berate you and smack you silly and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS leave you alone, not taking care of you and whatnot.
Sekarang haaa....rasekan padahnye. :P :D
Anyway...thank you for dedicating TWO posts about your LIL SIS...
She does sound like a great person.... :P
brothers are ALWAYS a pain... we hv 2 to prove it!! hehe...
yes you were a pain but so were we! you didn't deserve the things you got... i beg you consider our states of mind tho!
:D
Now I see.. :)
My sister's almost 15 years younger that my brother and I'm 14 months younger than him. No, this is not a math test ;)
I know how much pain a younger sibling can be but I now know too, how to ignore :D
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